After filing the police report, I found myself unable to do anything.
I felt there was nothing more I could do. And so— time simply passed.
It was what people call “crying yourself to sleep,” except I couldn’t even sleep.
I felt frustration, fear, and regret. Yet there was nothing I could change.
All I could do was let time sort out my emotions.
I tried to move forward. I tried not to dwell on it. I tried to return to my daily life.
But— in quiet moments, the memories returned.
“Why didn’t I notice it then?” “What could I have done to prevent it?”
No matter how much I thought about it, there were no answers. The same regrets circled endlessly in my mind.
And there was one more thing— a feeling that never left me.
I had caused trouble for my family.
That reality pierced my heart again and again.
Around September 2024, something changed.
I couldn’t sleep at night.
Even when I went to bed, I couldn’t fall asleep. And even when I finally did, I woke up several times during the night.
The same thoughts repeated in my head:
“Why didn’t I notice it then?” “What could I have done to prevent it?”
Unable to bear it, I went to an internal medicine clinic.
But I didn’t mention the scam.
I only said, “I can’t sleep.”
The doctor told me that many older adults struggle with sleep. Then I was prescribed sleeping medication.
I hesitated. I was afraid of becoming dependent.
But the sleepless nights continued.
End of Episode 10 (Part 1)
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