Facing the sleeping pills
I began taking the sleeping medication.
I wanted to rely on it as little as possible. But reality wasn’t that simple.
I depended on it four to five times a week.
Slowly reducing the number of days
Even so, I tried to reduce the frequency little by little.
“Tonight, I’ll try to sleep without it.”
I added more of those nights, one at a time.
It took time. There was no quick improvement.
When change finally arrived
Still— around November 2025, something shifted.
I began to have more nights when I could sleep without medication.
The reality that hasn’t changed
Nothing has been resolved.
My money hasn’t returned. My situation hasn’t improved.
But something did change
What changed was— my feelings.
Back then, all I could do was blame myself.
But now, I’m slowly learning to accept what happened.
What I lost, what I regained
In the end, I didn’t get anything back.
And yet— I am gradually reclaiming my daily life.
To those who are suffering in the same way
There were days when the pain kept me from sleeping. But with time, the weight slowly eased.
If someone out there is suffering the same way, I want to tell you this:
It takes time. But—little by little, it becomes easier.
End of Episode 10 (Part 2)
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